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d0ndawnita

march 5, 2005

To remember:

Never force anyone to do things for you. It is sweeter when it is done voluntarily. :)

notes to self

1. Happiness is a choice.
2. Enjoy what you have. You will never know up to when it will be yours.
3. Take chances.
4. You did what you can in the past, continue living today.
5. No one can tell you what can make you happy.
6. There are things (and people) that are better left unnoticed.
7. If he/she failed you before, chances are, he/she will still fail you today.
8. If you fail in anyway, charge it to experience. And learn.
9. You know that you deserve better.
10. LOVE and BELIEVE in YOURSELF.

blast from the past

There are days, notable, and worth remembering...
There are those, forgotten, and buried down under.

What we had? You decide.

A Prayer

Lord, heal what is sick in me.

Weekend

During Fridays, you will always hear me say, TGIF. Indeed. I thank God for having Fridays because this only means that the week has passed and rest days are about to come. At least two days of rest out of the five days of work isn't that bad. I can say this now that I know how to maximize the two days of no work.

Now, weekend is about to end and I have to face a whole week's load of work again... I'm just wishing that Monday's would not be so bad and Friday would come soon. I so love weekends. It makes me miss someone. But during the weekdays, it helps me to be alone for a while, think of my own, take care of myself, and enjoy whatever I have.

I'm posting this because... I hope Friday would come fast. It would be Nadine's birthday on Saturday so it makes me more excited. :)

I have to rest now...

Bbye Sunday.

...


Hello, Monday! Be good.

is back!

I guess I'm back. This blog will come alive again. wiii..
I miss the Internet. I miss updating this blog constantly. wii...

our difference

We both had our chance.

I, unlike you, am not in grief today.
I, unlike you, am not suffering.
I, unlike you, am not regretting what happend to us.
because I, unlike you, did my best when we had our chance.

Sorry for hurting you. for causing pain. But my dear, we had our chance. You took lots of our chances. Now that it is over, don't flood me with "I'm sorry's". Don't you see that I'm sick of those? So please. Save yourself and stop. :)

untitled, still.

hoping.
anticipating.
wishing.
dreaming.

with you.
for you.
of you.

-d0ndawnita 031309

untitled

I miss writing...

dos.

TWO years na SANA!!!~

tomorrow- marks the day when I first heard that phrase in your lips. That phrase that started everything that we had. But that phrase lost its magic. The feeling lost its meaning.

I have loved you. Too much. Too much that it hurts me now. Too much that your voice still clings in my head. Too much that you can still make me cry.

Maybe, that is the operative term there. I loved you TOO MUCH that it had to end.

Now, a day before the day I once cherished, I want you to know that I am sorry. Sorry for hurting you... Sorry for not being enough. Sorry for whatever I have done.

I will forever cherish what we had. I will forever remember you. I will forever love you. Maybe it was my fault. I promised too much. I envisioned our future in a way that suits my wants and never consulted what you think... Maybe you played your part well but I did not.. Maybe you were to blame for your inconsistencies... Or maybe, we are not just meant to be.

September 8 will always be September 8.

Things change, people have lapses. Relationships end but our memories will be forever mine to keep.

There. I said it. Now, I will only have to survive tomorrow. without you. oh, I remember. Last year, I was not with you. Then, maybe tomorrow would not be that difficult to deal with. :)

...

In my efforts to search for "happiness", I lost my source of joy...

Para kay B

sa ika-4 na kwento pa lang ako, pero sobrang tinamaan ata ako. kita naman. tagalong na ako mag sulat. :))

Para Kay B. Nobela ni Ricky Lee.
(O kung paano dinevastate ng pag-ibig ang 4 out of 5 sa atin)

Me quota ang pag-ibig. Sa bawat limang umiibig ay isa lang ang magiging maligaya. Kasama ka ba sa quota?

Ewan. Malabo. Sa mga barkada ko (Jel, Deng, Liyan) alam namin na medyo malabo ata kami dun. (sorry kung dinamay ko kayo dito. :) alam naman natin ang kwento ng isa't isa. ;))

ayoko na bigla magkwento. hahaha.. :p next time. pag masaya na ang pwedeng i-share at nagmumukhang emo na ang blog na to. :)

nakakamiss...

nakakamiss mag blog. nakakamiss magsulat. nakakamiss matulog ng madaling araw at gigising para magsulat ulit. walang pakialam sa suot na damit, walang nararamadamang gutom. nakakamiss ang "laidback" na buhay. walang boss, walang time-in, walang oras na kelangan sundin. nasayo na kung palpak ka, nasayo na din kung magpapakabait at bibo ka.

pag weekends, pag walang Saturday work, dun nagsisink-in ang lahat- lahat na meron ako noon, at kung anu ang meron ako ngayon. ayokong isipin ang mga bagay na nawala, kasi alam ko na meron naman papalit diba? weekend. dalawang araw para magpahinga. pero hindi pa rin maalis sa isip ko na bukas, Lunes na naman. balik trabaho, balik sa dating buhay. BUSY kunwari. sa dami ng dapat gawin, e makakalimutan ko saglit ang mga bagay bagay na bumabagabag sa mga gabi ko. limang araw ulit na trabaho, naghihintay sa 430pm ng Friday, para makaalis at masabing tapos na naman ang linggo.

Tatlong bwan pa lang akong ganto. Masaya. Totoo, masaya ako kung anong meron ako ngayon. Pero hindi pa din naman maalis saakin ang isipin ang dating buhay. Nakakamiss. At siguro, pag ok na ako sa mga achievements ko, ay babalik ako sa laidback na buhay. simpleng buhay. simpleng manunulat na walang ibang gawin kundi isulat ang pumapasok sa isip. Hindi man ganun kagaling tulad ng iba, walang pakialam basta alam nya na meron naman syang konting alam at meron din naman ibubuga. ;)

Konting trabaho pa. Dumadaan daw dito ang lahat. Tuloy lang sa paghahanap ng fulfillment na kelangan sa buhay para tuluyang matahimik ang kalooban at isip. May mararating din naman sa tamang panahon. Tyaga muna. :) Panahon nga lang ata ang kalaban ko sa ngayon.

Kaya, enjoy lang! :)

di kelangan magmadali. Dadating din tayo dyan.

an entry at last

Suddenly, I'm scared to write.

Scared for I might say the things that I'm not supposed to. Scared that someone might be reading this and he or she is not supposed to. Or maybe, it has been too long when I felt this, experienced this, that I'm not sure how to compose myself and act properly on these kind of situations.

"Grace under pressure." You will learn this in college. But how can I apply this in real life? I'm not sure... How can i act, move, speak, or influence if I know that there is something bothering me. When everything is moving as planned, when I thought everything is in it's proper place, something gets disarrayed. Now, I'm out of focus, and the plans seem to be vague.

But even with these things at hand, there are some pieces that seem to improve. The people who stayed prove that nothing will change. Not time, distance, or death will ever change what you have. These people are what you commonly call friends and family.

For those who left, well, thank you for the time spent and the memories that will be treasured. Even how painful goodbye is, you know that you can't erase memories, you can't change what happened. But you can be happy in the long run. This is where we move on. Yes, it might be a difficult job to replace someone important, someone who already marked your life, your heart. But, you can always treasure the lessons and learn from the mistakes. Now, more than ever, you should know how to take care of someone, how to show your appreciation, and importance. If you care, love, or whatever you might feel for another, show it. This might be the only time you have to do so. Regrets are the most painful things you will ever feel. Especially when you knew that things would have been different, IF ONLY you acted differently.

And for the people who becomes a new part of my life, let us see how things would go. Uncertainties, problems, difficulties are given scenarios. But we can always prove that we know better now, and we can make this through- together. :)


So life continues.

Choose to be happy.

-chin-